Writing

For some people, writing comes pretty easily. For others, not so easily. I represent the latter.

Ever since I was a child, I have despised writing over any other subject that has ever existed. Don't get me wrong, I love to write but it's the getting started part that I have never possessed. No matter what the circumstances, I will never be happy to write until I get started, and that's the real kicker. I just can't force myself to start writing. I don't know why it has just always been that way. I wish it were otherwise.

I can remember, back when I was home schooled, when I would sit for hours crying over my clean piece of notebook paper. I just couldn't force myself to start writing. My mom once gave me 3 weeks to do a research paper on any topic of my choice. Yeah, I didn't start work on it until the last week. Something inside me would just fight the urge to get something down on paper, until I was forced to get it done.

Don't even get me started on outlines. I believe they save a lot of time too, unless your like me. A couple hours thinking of what to write for just an outline doesn't save much time. As my mom used to say, "The time it takes you to write your outline, it will save you all kinds of time in the long run". Yeah mom, I'm pretty sure it takes me just as long to write an outline as it does to just write the paper. It isn't going to save much time.

You could call me a procrastinator, but the way I see it, the only things I put off until the "last minute" all incorporate writing in it somehow, so I call myself a last minute writer. I'm not sure exactly why it is so hard for me to start writing. Other people have natural likings to write, why isn't it that way for me? Someday I hope this all changes, and then I will be a happy writer:)